Monet reflection

1/20/00

Soft lush lavender lilies

still for a moment

vibrate the wet wonderment

riotously reflecting rippling

willow leaves echo

embracing the water lovingly

as it births warmth and peace

Bubby

2/19/ 00

I see you smiling down at me

feeding me by the forkful in my youth

I was innocent

wide open to your legends

entertaining me as you tried your best

to fatten me up

to give me

your love food

kisses and chocolate malteds

loaded with Fox’s U-bet (“ I was a soda jerk once”)

in the old pale green malted maker

frozen ice cube trays full of your frozen milk

scraped with a fork it melts when beaten

for maximum froth...

then you slipped an egg in

always when I wasn’t looking

The fierce competitive edge

desire to have what you wanted

your way

fiercely warm it melted me

like chocolate on a hot day

froze me

shattered me when I crossed you

your temperature changes radical

your warmth inspiring

your cooking a Leonard Bernstein symphony

your intentions pure

your actions too human

too me

Red Rock Crossing Reflection #1

2/19/00

The glass pool

its own reality

golden ball radiating outward

long black fingers

stretching out from the dark spine-core

reaching upward outward striving

from their center

piercing the bright aureate sphere

wearing it

a halo of fire

crowning the blackness

The Gym

2/19/00

Regis and Kathy Lee

blare their message:

millions of dollars to win

dishwashers for

free

love and marriage

permanent Valentine consciousness

wide open gapes gazing upwards

as vast bodies

move slower than a walking pace

for the requisite 20 minutes

worship the one eyed wonder

Cyclops of consumption

driving them

the carrot on a stick

on the endless treadmill

of consumer loss/gain/loss

Standing Stone

3/18/00

Water rushing ceaselessly

against it

standing mutely

enduring

bit by tiny bit

dissolving

becoming one

Cycle

3/18/00

Brown decay

life of last year

broken, lost

crunchless thin wispy fragments

discarded in the cold

lush green rising among them

verdant aroma rising

above their end

the cycle never-ending

Cold City Heart

3/18/00

 “Gotta get there fast...

when you’ve seen one red rock

you’ve seen them all...

I just want the power spot”

get back to the inner city

crack heads and needy

to help

the air is too thin to breathe here

too much sun and light

wholesomeness

tough to endure

when you’re used to cigarettes and coca cola

Whussup with the 10 year old

skinny picture

you thought was you

Where is the thin wholesome ideal

you feel you are

Beaten down

by the inner city

consumerized into an automaton

the warmth frozen out

by cold souls in a cold place

radiant for fleeting moments

the involuntary constriction reasserts itself in protection

Reaching desperately grabbing

for a lifeline

I’m not a life preserver any more

I’m floating peacefully

on the surface of the creek

disturbed by your eddies

wistfully watching

you thrash against the current

downstream

Unable to find and know the power spot is within

Stone Baby

3/18/00

Little stone person

bent forward in prayer

head nestled gently

arms and legs fetally relaxed

at one with the rock.

Temple

5/21/00

As the concrete approach ends

I remove my shoes with joy

physical contact

soft, gentle

red stone dust slightly damp

bringing sensation

to my feet

I slow down

quietly

pace and pause

feeling hearing

the birds and insects

in a riot of green, gold, orange and black

diving nearby

unseen until my earthtouch sensed them

entering their bodies

feeling their simple joy

mating, eating, lounging

uncomplicated.

Mortality

5/ 22/00

Mortality...

so fleeting, or is it?

Sights, smells, tastes

irritating noises

sweetness in the air

spiciness of the food

fresh adventure

pain of loss

loneliness and the joy of companionship

the struggle to achieve it

grasping sometimes

floating effortlessly others

How much do you love

and how much do you fear?

Persistent Magnetism

5/22/00

I saw her again today

ice blue eyes clutching at my soulcore

my openness inviting you in once more

despite the pain of before

It is dissipated...boiled off like waters poured

on the rocks in a high desert summer noon

the fleeting life of us lost too soon.

Magnetism between us keeps me in awe

as my brain screams at my heart

No! Stay apart!

Memories of the past stridently paraded

soldiers of pain to which I’ve become jaded.

Still my heart beckons,

One more time!

Scent

5/22/00

I hold you closely

the scent of you in my soul

not the scents you spray in the air

or wear

the scent of your hair

pervading me

I bring in your essence

your depth

through me

beyond the thread of common teachers

shared goals and dreams

intellectual dances

revelry of our souls

is

what I take joy in

brief dances though they have been this time

maybe never to be truly consummated

your scent still permanently sealed on my soul.

Inipi

5/22/00

I stare at the flames in mute preparation

awe in their orange potency

I divest myself of everything

reentering the womb

solemnly

joyously

I take my place in the circle

blessing, singing, praying,

witnessing, grounding,

sweating, purifying,

whining, moaning,

finding my inner strengths

within my weakness

I am humbled

and awed

at and with my creator

I look into your depths

unfearing, unflinching

I surrender to your wisdom.

Green Memory

5/26/00

Your green arms embrace me

long lost return hug

lush life scented verdancy

surrounding me on my red rock throne

welcoming me back

the ambergreen waters

reflect

the joy

burbling echoes

of soft goodwill

pulsing with nurturing life energy

I drink a deep draught of remembrance...

it will feed me wherever I go

in the depths of my memory

forever fleeting moment though it is

timeless inside me.

 You Only Live Once

6/00

“You only live once,” she said.

A limited existence

physical in nature only

a theory I can’t accept

blinded from the one

the visual spectrum a contrived limitation

while angels and cherubim dance around your head

laughing joyously

the limitation Science-Religion has set

prevents you from seeing

and you end up missing the fun

of connecting with the Whole Being of the Universe

goofing divinely with your spirit

and your real family

as they quip at your foibles

intruding in your head

inopportunely but humorously

sharing, nurturing, guiding, entertaining.

Sky Sea

6/27/00

Blue waves silently

slowly crash over my head

their eddy-whorls echoing

gently above me

washing white froth

with a soft caress

easing me

soothing me

with their majesty and size

my insignificance a comfort

I’m reduced to just being

Creekmirror

6/27/00

The glistening glimmering flat-wobbly surface shines

first with the sun’s reflection

as I stare into the depths

my first impression dissolves into

the reflective greenlife within

its depths/heights

the waving leaflike ephemeral

one-moment

touchable the next

softer in reflection

gentler and sweeter softened by the creek

only the verdant life highlights visible

as the darker parts meld with the creek.

Dragonfly II

6/27/00

Black compound eyes like a set of cool looking sunglasses

warmly interlocking with my gaze

you speak beyond my awareness

quieting my rush

dampening my passion

to wait in inner peace

Its all in front of me

watch and it will appear

wait until it appears

I will know

Offering itself to me it approaches

then nodding,

we part ways

Tango

7/2/00

Beckoning me with a sinuous rhythm

my guts quiver to the beat

your cheek against mine

hearts as one

I step back as you step against me

in the same breath

I step into you as you give way in the dance of life

gentle firm grip

accenting the ebb and flow of the tidal dance

honor and mutuality

as I lead you

but the dance leads me

a moth in a flame

whirling and cavorting endlessly around its light

 Gymbuddy

7/2/00

Cool, nonchalant

chatting happily to all takers

pushing well past what I could,

40 to his 80, 200 to his 800

he won the great competition on the outside

a place I’ll never go

the stoic loneliness inside

a place I’ll never go

he journeys back into the dark of it

when he is by himself

nobody to gaily speak to

his insides decaying from neglect

the love pushed away

denied

the wives of children of the past

on the outside of the walls

of his gated inner community

the guards won’t let him in

the sadness literally eating away

a cancer in the genitals

no joy there, only idle chatter and patter

he reaches out in his pain to me

I silently listen in camaraderie

Quietly fearing the same fate inside

Supporting him in his pain and fear.

Creekmirror II

7/2/00

Softmoist rustling voice

washing over me

I bathe in your frothy susuruss of wind and water

as you waver in my reflection

I gaze deeply inside

sitting at the rock edge

I’m not inside

just up in the clouds

dark sky and lush leaves

the top of my head

the part that connects with it all

the sun reflecting off the reflection

lights it with a spotlight

as I edge further

I lose my balance

melding with and disrupting the picture

with a splash.